Genderqueer : Beyond Binary

I am Zan, Zan I am. I am neither him nor her, and both.I enjoy poetry, grammar, music, prophetic genderisms, thoughts on gender fluidity, and art. I am forever changing this description, as I am forever in a state of growth and understanding. Feel free to ask me anything, I am completely open and honest. My life is an open book for people to take from and learn. I post all kinds of things that interst me, make me laugh, make me think, and help me to understand others. Nudity and sex are art forms, just as music and painting and writing are.


I have a fascination with pig's curly tails.
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When did I first discover I was GQ…

 

From the time I was very little/young, I had issues with a lot of things. I began thinking about some very complex things for someone my age. I was born female, but looked like a little boy, if I wasn’t wearing a dress. Often times, I’d be mistaken for being a boy when I was at the store with my dad, or other times when I was wearing pants and a polo shirt. I would always correct those who made the mistake and say that I was a girl, but I’d also say that it doesn’t matter whether I am a boy or a girl, that I am good at whatever I am good at. In school, I hated that certain things were labeled as “girls” things or “boys” things… like push-ups, and how you did things, etc. I was always saying that things that were labeled “girls” stuff always seemed less than what “boys” things were, and I used to push for equality. Then, as I got older, I realized that even with society shaping certain genders into expressing themselves the way it was expected, that I held many characteristics that resembled “male”, however, I can honestly say that I have never wanted to be male completely. I LIKE my female body, but I also LIKE to present as male sometimes. I like that people are sometimes confused about my gender, and when I am with friends who question someone elses gender I always say, “Why does it even matter?” Why are we so hell bent on identifying people with labels that sets them aside from someone else… “oh, you’re a male” “You are gay” “you are butch” etc… I don’t care specifically what gender people are or orientation. I like the fact that men can have some feminine qualities and vice versa, but I wish that those qualities wouldn’t have to be identified by gender. To me, qualities are qualities regardless. It wasn’t until about five years ago, that I was introduced to the word genderqueer, and thought “wow, there’s a label for me too!” I also considered transitioning at that time…not specifically to change my gender, but to perhaps LOOK more in the middle but decided that really wasn’t the road for me. I prefer the middle here where I am. I am a mom, a sister, a friend, “that guy in the store”, “sir”, and many more things. I like being fluid in that I can wear a skirt and put on eye makeup one day, and then bind and pack and wear a suit the next, but feel completely comfortable in both, while also the next day just wearing a combination of both…

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